How many times??????

How many times
will u make me cry?
How many times
will u watch me die?
How many times
will i fall apart?
How many times
will u break my heart?

How many times
will i seek advice?
How many times
will i fall in love?
How many times
will i look at the sky?
How many times
will i wonder why?

How many times
will i see you again?
How many times
will i never begin?
How many times
will i be speechless?
How many times
will moments be priceless?

How many times
will my heart ship a beat?
How many times
will i be incomplete?

How many times
will i loose my mind?
How many times
will love make me blind?
How many times
will i catch my breath?
How many times
will i witness death?

How many times
will i write?
How many times
will i fight?
How many times
will i be confused?
How many times
will i be used?

How many times
will i need to disappear?
How many times
will i have to fear?
How many times
will i see my fate?

How many times
will there be a method to my madness?
How many times
will i sit alone in sadness?
How many times
will i survive?
How many times
will i feel alive....?

national leaders tree

It is good to see how creative artists can get.. here is an exceptional image of a tree with pictutes of 10 great indian leaders of all time embedded in it.

Life at 20 something......

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

stories i tell..

Don't give me answers for I would refuse
"yes" is a word for which I have no use
And I wasn't looking for heaven or hell
Just someone to listen to stories I tell

Now what is a blessing and what is a dream
Caught between portraits and none's what it seems
And why is it people expect there's a change
When I feel I'm a part of something I can't see
I feel the same

Now don't ask me questions or I will retreat
Fame is a cancer and ego its seed
Now I wasn't looking for heaven or hell
Just someone to listen to stories I tell

Do we ever wonder?
And do you ever care...

Subtle salvation in poems we know
Hiding our heads in a shadow of home
Now I wasn't looking for wreaths or for bells
Just someone to listen to stories I tell
Stories I tell

its only words!!!!

i am here in my bed,counting all the words you said to me,
my efforts to go away from you are pushin me towards u..
those words u once said..


"i cannot see tears in yr eyes"
"nisha i think i like you"
" u r so cute"
"i....love you"
"can i kiss you"
"i want u forever"
"i want to see you right now"
"u look s*** in yr nightwear"
"wake me at six"
"you r my good luck charm"
"i want u to meet my friends"
"give me a picture of yours"
"u r my poochu"(this is what he calls me...sorry called me)
"poochu dont be late"
"i dont want u to booze"
"y does yr male friend talk to you in a flirtatious way"
"u make me mad"
"its about 'us'"
"i dont love you for yr outer beauty,u r beautiful inside"
"bachaa grow up"
"take care of my nisha when i am not around"
"i am missing u badly"
"poochu y r we away"
"kisse do"
"call karo na plz"
"i need to talk to u b4 going to bed"
"i want to talk to mom about you"
"i wanted to hear u"
"baby i want to marry you"
"mere poochu ki tabiyat bahut kharaab hai...plz see a doctor"
"i want to buy u something wid my first salary"
"i want a studio apartment for us"
"i want 2 cute lilltle kids"
"poochu i am sorry for last night"
"the thought of you going away from me,kills me"
"i will give you a sweet little puppy"
"baby plz support me,i need you"
"i am very happy with you"
"miss me"
"tell yr friends tht i pamper u too"
"poochu dont cry,we will meet soon"
"come to me rite now"
"gussa ho"
"plz forgive me"
"u have the most beautiful eyes"
"i am so happy we r meeting tomorrow"
"baby i missed you so much"
"this time i will take u along"
"u look good today"
"man.. i love your eyes"
"i have to go tomorrow"
"i will miss you"
"i dont know when will we meet next".....

and time just flew...

words u speak now..
"i am busy"
"i need to concentrate on my work"
"i dont have time for love rite now"
"gimme some space"
"y do u want to know where am i,n where i have to go"
"i am tired,want to doze off"
"be pratical nisha"
"y do u alwez start with this nonsense act of yours"
"i dont want to marry"
"i am still happy"
"noone is indispensible"
"i am tired of the fights"
"i dont get time for myself"
"go out with your friends"
"i cannot come and meet you"
"i have this one year to achieve what i want"
"plz dont disturb me"
"its about u and menot 'us'"
"gimme a break nisha"
"i dont feel the love nymore"
"i cannot speak to you everyday"
"i dont love you nymore.....i dont love you nymore....i dont love you nymore.....i dont love you nymore.....i dont love you nymore...

the last sentence still echoes.....