I can't believe that I was crying..
I dunno why.. but lately, I just like to cry..
And that is one of the reasons why I decided to blog.. Gosh, why does it have to be like this? I hate this, feeling so helpless... I thought I can handle it but I can't... I can't.. and I hated that.. I knew that this would and could happen.. but what did I do?.. Nuthin.. I didn't do anything to stop myself from getting into this problem..
The more I think about it.. the more I feel stupid..
I can't believe that I can be such a paranoid... I'm in between realizing the reality and the dream.
What if what I have always thought about all of this time is not the reality....
What if all of this is just going to be in my dreams...
What if I am denying all of it..
What if I am being naive..
What if I am covering the truth..
What if I don't want to see what's there...
What if I am lying to myself all of this time..
I dunno anymore.. I'm confused..
I'm so lost..
Should I end this?
What am I doing?
I'm tired... I'm tired... I'm sick and tired of all this.
I don't see in any point of continuing this.
What for?
What's in it?
Gosh, can I just open my eyes and see out there..
Saturday, January 5, 2008
i can't believe that i was crying...
Posted by nisha at 1:03 AM
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Hey you write well.....get stronger, have faith n ttrust, u d come over this phase :)
thanx ashu...i feel better after writing dis...i think i can leave my pain here n feel relaxed...i know i will come over this phase but when,i dnt know...
hey nisha..da best way to get rid of frustration is to vent it out..and blog is da best :)
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